1923 This is Crazy!

This chapter was CRAZY! Sula is something else! What child would watch their own mother die? I know I wouldn't. Even though her mom said she didn't like her, she loved her to death. Hannah should've taken the signs she had seen serious. She could've prevented her death and fooled fate. If Sula keeps doing the things she's doing, someone will recognize the pattern. Nel would be the one  who had been watching Sula doing all the evil things. Then Sula and Nel would fight it out until someone dies. I wonder what it means if I dream about a wedding dress. Would it still symbolize death? This is an old saying but I know if you dream about a fish then somebody pregnant. My grandma told me that when I was younger. I miss my grandmother so much! Its still hard to believe that she's gone. Sula is so heartless and nonchalant that blocks out real feelings and emotions. I wonder if Hannah understood her mom about the reason she killed Plum. It's crazy how you can raise a child in a structured household and the child could turn out becoming something totally different. Now that Hannah is dead, Sula has no choice but to look up to Eva. What a role model! Tell me why these people charged us four dollars just to have a plate of food from the cookout. Some people paid and didn't even get a plate of food! I didn't pay because my friend had hotdogs, fruit, and chips in her room. I'm not a moocher, they just generously share. It feels as if the better I try to be, the more I backslide. I try to do the right thing and treat people better than they treat me but I always get the worse side. Things have been having a snowball effect lately and I don't know how to cope.